To My Sweetie,

You are gone now but, I will always have those precious moments with me for the rest of my life.

I never realized the hold you had on my heart until you left. I will remember all the little things you did for me over the years, They seemed unimportant at the time but, stand large in my memory now.

Oh for just one moment again to touch your hand or kiss your lips I would trade my life for that fleeting encounter just once again.

You brought me nothing but happiness. How will I ever go on without your loving attention to my every desire no matter what it might have been?

If you showed me nothing else, it was how to appreciate what a wife is to a man, it's his strength, it's his reason to live, it's his very soul.

Sweetie, thank you for all of those fabulous times.

With never ending love.
Billy..... ONLY MEMORIES!

Gone From My Sight
I am standing upon the seashore.
A ship at my side spreads her white
sails to the morning breeze and starts
for the blue ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength.
I stand and watch her until at length
she hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sea and sky come
to mingle with each other.
Then, someone at my side says;
"There, she is gone!"
"Gone where?"
Gone from my sight. That is all.
She is just as large in mast and hull
and spar as she was when she left my side
and she is just as able to bear her
load of living freight to her destined port.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.
And just at the moment when someone
at my side says, "There, she is gone!"
There are other eyes watching her coming,
and other voices ready to take up the glad
shout;
"Here she comes!"

-Henry Van Dyke

Aunt Cindy is gone from our sight, for now.
Anita Evangelista

The message below came from a ONE TIME encounter with a fellow biker when Bill & Cindy rode to Canada to get a Tee Shirt from a HARLEY shop, and it was closed for a holiday. He got the owner to send Cindy the shirt.

She has a power of her personality.

Hi Big Bill .. I am not really sure what to say. I can say this much at least .. I have been through this twice, once with my mom and once with my brother in law. It was never easy, not for one moment.

The truth is that there isn't much here for us that doesn't test us in some way. It is how we grow and evolve. It is the hard stuff like this that prepares us for the things we need to face .. you know, the stuff down the road that we all dread. It gives us all a chance to look at ourselves and our own mortality. It gives us a chance to make things right, for ourselves and those around us.

Cindy has fought hard .. she has faced her final test. The rest is gonna be smooth sailing for her, of that you can be certain. She leaves you and all your friends with memories of her .. both good and bad. She leaves you with things left incomplete, unfinished .. all with the hope and knowledge that there are some things we are meant to do by ourselves .. for ourselves. She would never leave you unless she thought you were ready to be here without her. She loved you too much to give you a job that she thought you couldn't do by yourself.

I am not really religious Bill .. but I believe that we all have a purpose here. Cindy's purpose was to live, love and make the most of the time she has .. that is exactly what she did. I can't say the same for very many people. I would like to think that wherever she is on her way to .. that she has earned a spot there ahead of the rest of us. She was just that much better and learned just that much more about love, life, caring, good times, bad times .. the list goes on. I would also like to believe that we all will see her and each other again in the same place .. people with good hearts must end up somewhere in the same area code, right?

Tell her that she has done so well that I said she managed to get in on the BIG RIDE before the rest of us and that if I could go with her, I would. You and I and the rest of your friends will be along soon enough .. in the blink of an eye. Tell her to have a coffee and buy a T-shirt and wait ... we are coming and will be at the shop to see her.We didn't spend much time together when we met .. but we managed to stay friends till right now. For whatever reason I was asked to be involved and to say good bye too. I thank both of you for t hat.

Give Cindy my love and best wishes ..
Jeff

"Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them." - The 14th Dalai Lama

Last message from Jeff

Hi Bill .. I am sad, but I am also elated. Cindy had her death come with everything she had in life .. surrounded by her friends and family .. traveling to her final destination with her heart filled with love for all of them. Don't you wish we could all have that choice? I think she was very lucky. I guess I shouldn't use the word luck, she earned it. Good karma, love for others and being kind grants you special things in life .. and in death. Cindy had all those things.

"I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The proper function of man or women is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time."

I found this little paragraph the other day .. I think it suits Cindy just fine. She was a fire ball whose time to glow and shine was over .. I think she wanted it that way. No one wants to stay around here just to exist .. there are better places to be. - Jeff